An Open Letter To Michael

My Dearest Michael, August 29th, 2009

Every year since I was very young, I have written you an open letter. Last night/early this morning I happened to come across many years of words to you. Mostly written on certain days, important days, HIStorical days in your life...
Tonight's letter also falls on a day just for you August 29th, the day in which you were born, but I can't help but feel so strange about writing these words to you...to my sleeping silent feet.

Around the world, people are honouring you today, in so many different ways, in so many different styles. The innocence in the love shed for you, would bring you to tears Michael. If you could only see how truly, and humbly you are loved. I know a couple years ago you spoke about the smog, and the fact that you didn't feel appreciated, how unloved you felt. I'm so very sorry from the bottom of my heart that it took this...for the world to realize how much they love you. How much some took you for granted. It took this, for the world to really see you as a man, a brother, an uncle, a son...and a daddy. Not just Michael Jackson the Icon.

A couple things I wanted to say to you Mike...things I have said before and a couple I haven't. So I guess I will start at the beginning.

As you know at the tender age of just 5...I knew that you would be in my life forever. Being so small, but knowing exactly what I was witnessing, I surrounded my childhood, teenage years, and of course, my adult hood with you. At every different point of my life you are in it. You were the first man I ever truly loved. Deeply, unconditionally. Although our beings never touched, you helped me through so many things, so many.

When I was a young child, that child with the huge dream...you were to be the man I would marry. LoL. When I was in my 'youth' you were the boyfriend every girl wanted to have. When I became a teenager you were the big brother, who I loved more like a father figure. That never left...you were my big brother. Who I defended, protected, fought for, loved unconditionally, cried with, cried for...because I knew you would do the same for your loved ones. I did this, because it was natural for me, and because it was right. Michael my dear sleeping brother, this will never stop. I will defend, fight, kick, scream, cry for, and love you until my rAiNcRiEs are silenced to...until I too fall silently to sleep.

In 2004, on the day after your arrest, when I saw you taken into that police station in handcuffs, I felt so much dread I had no where to go, no one to turn to. I had no one to hold me up, as we fought for you. Then it was like out of no where...God lead me to PositiveVoices4MJJ. Or they found me, I haven't really understood how that works just yet. The only thing I do know for sure, is that God placed me in a beautiful aura to do exactly what I needed to do for you. But it was there, that I could defend, fight, scream, cry, and love you...except I had others to fall back on when things got to rough, and I needed help standing up. And others, were doing the same thing for you. Like a huge circle of positivity, and unconditional love for you.

Positive Voices 4MJJ...

Together we saw you through the worst thing that could be placed on innocence. We were so strong for you, even when it hurt to wake up in the morning, even when it hurt to read what was being said, when it just plain hurt...we stayed positive, we stayed strong because you needed us. Because in our hearts, our brother needed us. June 13th 2005 will be a day I will never forget. I will never forget how proud I felt to be a Michael Jackson fan that day, watching the innocence in your eyes walk out of that court room a free man...I was so proud of you...but I knew you weren't as free as the world thought you were.

Positive Voices 4MJJ...

We tried everything in our power to get messages to you, to tell you it's OK take your time. Do things for Michael. Take care of your children. You don't owe anyone anything! Did you receive some of them...yes I KNOW you did *wink* but...there are many of us that still wish, we could have done more for you. Our main mission, was to see you through, and that Michael, we accomplished. You knew how much PV4MJJ loved you, and honored you...respected you...and that's all that we could have asked for.

I wanted to thank you tonight, along with God. Because of you, and God...I was given *back* to my family. To the tag team, to my Mama. You will never ever know how much importance you are in that happening. You will never know how much your life, gave to mine...in giving me them *back* And how important you are in the foundation of our love.

Oh and Mike there is just one more thing. I'm not going to go into the story of how it became about, because this open letter would turn into a confessional...a long confessional, lol...but there is something else I wanted to thank you for.

rAiNcRiEs, thank you for my rAiNcRiEs, thank you for showing me that it's ok to let people in, as long as you shed the cries of the ones that matter. You will always be the first tear in this ocean of rAiNcRiEs, and every piece, every word, every rhyme, limerick, story or poem will be written in dedication and honor to you. Thank you so much for the gifts and blessings you have given to my life with the help from god.

I will always tribute to you, honor you, defend you, fight for you, celebrate you...and love you.

Today, 51 years ago you were born, the only thing that could make this day complete is you being here celebrating with the blanket of love, and the tears of innocence that will shed for you on this day.

June 25th 2009, will never go unnoticed...and I hope my sleeping brother, that you never feel unwanted, unloved, unappreciated, or blinded by the smog ever again. Cause your fans, loved ones, family and friends will continue on your dream, and relish in your Beloved Legacy. And show forth, just how important your message is, your life is, your work is. We will never let our Man in The Mirror fade away.


Thank you for today God... and thank you for bringing Michael Joseph Jackson to my life.

My Silent Feet....I love you, 'And that's for all time'

<3
rAiN