~Enough For Today~

Since June 25th, I believe in my heart...that most of us are in the exact same place. Emotionally, some physically....just plain drained. I know most of us for the past couple months express ourselves and others find our thoughts, emotions, and feelings similar. It's almost like others are going into our minds, and writing things in which we feel, and wish to say or express, but can not find the words. So...like always...we become each others voice.


The past week or so, have been a roller coaster for me. Amongst the daily woes of life, I have been been dealing with other things. In a power struggle with my mind, to keep me afloat, treading water amongst my sea of rAiNcRiEs. I have been hit hard, and in the past 2 days...I have completely given up, and let myself sink down...to a level in which I promised myself I wouldn't go again...never again...after June 13th 2005.


But I have...I have been fighting evil, in my surroundings but also in my mind. For a writer this is very tough for me, as it is subconsciously taking over my purest thoughts, emotions, and writings in which I use to cleanse myself.


So today, when I stirred about, and dragged myself out of bed, I went to my email box. I had 2 emails. Two, and by both of the subject lines, I knew that this battle was just beginning. I knew that the devil was testing me, to see how far i would let him in. To see how deep I would let him into my mind. But I opened them.

A private email, and a video...by the devil himself. After viewing both, the feeling of being completely sick to my stomach had risen, and I knew that I needed inspiration. Words of wisdom, words of purity, words from God himself....or by one of his 'workers'. I turned to Michael.

This poem or mini statement...has always touched me...but today...it seems to send such a completely different message to my heart... After my past 48 hours I use these inspirational words from our dear Michael...and relish in his beauty. In this beautiful picture he has painted, even tho by tragedian, he still makes the most beautiful sereal picture be placed into my mind.



~Enough For Today~

Dance rehearsals can go on past midnight, but this time I stopped at ten.
"I hope you don't mind," i said, looking up into space, "but that's enough for today".
A voice from the control room spoke. "You okay?"
"A little tired, I guess," I said.
I slipped on a windbreaker and headed down the hall.
Running footsteps came up behind me.
I was pretty sure who they belonged to. "I know y ou to well," she said, catching
up with me. "What's wrong?"
I hesitated. "Well , I dont know how this sounds, but I saw a picture today in the
papers. A dolphin had drowned in a fishing net.

From the way its body was tangled in the lines, you could read so much angony. Its eyes were vacant, yet there was still that smile, the one dolphins never lose, even when they die..." My voice trailed off.
She put her hand lightly in mine. "I know, I know'
"No, you don't know all of it yet.
It's not just that I felt sad, or had to face the fact that an innocent being had died.

Dolphins love to dance--of all the creatures in the sea,
that's their mark. Asking nothing from us, they cavort in the waves while we marvel.
They race ahead of ships, not to get there first but to tell us,
"It's all meant to be play. Keep to your course, but dance while you do it".
"So there I was, in the middle of rehearsal,
and I thought, 'They're killing a dance.'
And then it seemed only right to stop. I can't keep the dance from being killed,
but at least I can pause in memory, as one dancer to another.

Does thatmake any sense?"
Her eyes were tender. "Sure, in its way. Probably we'll wait years before
everyone agrees on how to solve this thing. So many interests are involved.
But its too frustrating waiting for improvements tomorrow.
Your heart wanted to have its say now"
"Yes," I said, pushing the door open for her.


"I just had this feeling, and that's enough for today."



~Michael Joseph Jackson~