Denial (originally written 6.25.09 @ 2:45pm)

This can't be. What have you beaten into our heads time and time before about the media, tabloids, and news about you. 'It's Garbage'. Okay so we have heard most of this before...

-'Taken to the hospital'
-'Very Sick'
-'Ambulance'
-'Near Death'
-'Hoax'
-'He's got this medical problem'
-'He's got that medical problem'

What is different this time?

This time...your name is plastered all over every news channel and interrupting every broadcast all over the world. This time...it is the banner that is going across my TV screen that is different. Today, my TV is telling me that Michael Jackson has been rushed to UCLA hospital with cardiac arrest. CNN is stating, some sort of cardiac rest. My instant thought? Cardiac arrest...ya sure, maybe dehydrated, lethargic, exhausted...The simple actions that the media would take and turn into this frenzy. My second thought...Get hold of *Sharon* and *Bretty*.

My question to my 2 best mates...and undoubtedly 2 of the 4 people that understand exactly how I'm feeling...now, and always about Michael. Yes lets do that, lets get hold of them.

"Bretty, is there any truth in this MJ hosptial thing?"
Waiting...Waiting...Waiting...
My heart beating very fast now...anticipating an answer....
I see him typing.....
Waiting.....
Waiting..................
Close my eyes...praying for the right answer.
His response:
"Yes Laura"

Fear, taking over my body, hands shaking so much I cant't type.
Only thought that makes sense...'Ma'