Helping Others?

This is 2 of the 4 'letters, and 'notes' I have received from fans, and other followers of our Beloved Michael, explaining expressions, and thanking me for my blog. Thanking me for sharing my words, my rawness, my experience...and simply my devastation. A couple were anonymous, and 2 are from people I know. People I didn't say hey read my blog, read this...they simply saw it and took it upon themselves to do so. I wanted to share 2 because I was deeply touched, that they felt honored to come here to read my doings...and i am truly honored because it said it 'helped' them.

"Read your blog Laura, Ty, have not been able to cry about it am bawling now Ty so much *Yahoo Smilie Hug* Laura, i cant say that i had him as much in my heart as you but, he was there, and i have been thinking and thinking why i had not cried yet about it, you know i cried about Farrah Fawcett but, when it came to Michael Jackson i was numb, that's not like me, i am a crier, have read alot about his death and nothing was bringing tears only made me more numb, but your blog helped...Thank you!"~Dawlbabby (love you sis!) NOTE: THIS IS NOT PV4MJJ DOLLBABY!!


"I just wanted to write you rAiN and say thank you so much for beautifully expressing your love proudly for the world to read. I don't think you realize how much this helps others. People that can't have a strong voice like yours. Or maybe loudly expressing their rawness like you have done. I am here to say thank you so much MJ fan to another obvious devoted MJ fan. its so good to see someone raw like you putting your real feelings and emotions out in the public, and not shying away being proud and not scared of ridicule. Your words have helped me alot. I am proud to say I have read the realness of a true MJ fan today. May God Bless You Always" ~Anonymous, New Mexico 45yrs


Now when I set out to make this blog. I selfishly just thought of myself really...Anyone that knows me, knows...I'm a writer. In my heart, to the deepest part of my soul. I have been since I can remember. I must write, if I'm feeling happy, overwhelmed, overjoyed or devastated. I must do this so my heart and console itself. To help in the personal therapy I learnt very early on...My sea of rAiNcRiEs is wide in its path, and it runs to the deepest part of my solitude. Michael plays a huge part of my rAiNcRiEs. (This is a complete story on its own, that i will post soon, I'm just not emotionally ready to write this chapter yet.) So when Michael passed...my first instinct was to write everything down. Get it out...scribble it down...knowing later on I was going to use this. My therapy...

I just wanted to say thank you so much for the few that have reached out and expressed your most touching words to me. You will never realize what that did to my soul. You are now swimming amongst these rAiNcRiEs that fill my heart.

Peace and Love
~rAiN