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Beloved Legacy will be on HIATUS until further notice

Thank you to everyone who takes the time to come here, to share in my thoughts, and feelings. And a big thanks to the ones who share with me their thoughts and feelings of similar situations.
And to the anonymous people who send messages...I too thank you.

Right now, I need to take some time for myself. I have come to realize over the past month that I am living day to day, and not in the moment. Which is usually not how I am. I am losing myself slowly, I need to let my silence take over...in other words I need confinement to wrap me up and take me under.

So again, thank you to all whom spend just a couple minutes of your time here, and brought a little rAiNcRiEs into your life. You are forever a part of me. Never forget that. I am eternally grateful.

"Every thought, every word, every feeling,
Every hope, every love, every dream,
Every smile, every tear, every care,
Leaves a little bit of us all
Everywhere"

Peace, and everlasting Love
rAiN

STOP

IT

PLEASE

I

CANT

DO

THIS

ANYMORE

PLEASE

LITERALLY

BEGGING

YOU

S T O P

~Listen to My rAiNcRiEs~

I am a tree
That has no limbs
No stems to branch out
With nothing left to give

I am a flower
Withering dry
With no water left to drink
To continue my growth,
No beauty left within

I am an eagle
Who can not fly
I have fallen to the ground
No clouds left in the sky

I am an angel
No longer dressed in white
I have lost my wings of peace
I am frozen from flight

I am your eyes
With tears falling down
Take my hand and cover your eyes
Look deep into the darkness

And listen to my rAiNcRiEs

©rAiNcRiEs
'2010'

rAiN-ism Of The Day

The day you died
God took my pain
And wrapped it into a blanket of love
And called it 'rAiNcRiEs'

™rAiNcRiEs™
©01-10

~For So Long~

I live like I love
Hard and strong
but lately I've been lost
Lost for so long

I live my life
and take things as they come
But lately I've been thinking
That life has just begun

I wonder where I'm going
and how long I'll be gone
I wonder how many more times
They will play this tender love song

I live like I love
Soft and pure
but lately I've been wondering
How much more my soul can endure

Cause I live like I love
Hard and strong
but lately I've been lost...
Lost for so long

©rAiNcRiEs
Originally written
01.17.10
01.26.10

~ Victim ~

My vision is blurred
I can not see
I have gone blind
This I can not believe

you would leave me here
and let me wonder about alone
With my eyes bleeding
In this lonely home

My heart is breaking
and it's because of you
This cut on my face
It's the awful truth

These bruised arms
I can not use
I can't hold up my head
I have a victim of your abuse

I'm in this house
Battered and bruised
I have lost all memories
I am dead from your abuse

©rAiNcRiEs
01.26.10~4:00am

~It Stopped rAiNing In The Second She Left~

The storm was massive.
Beads of rain pelted on my face.
I felt as if I was in the fury of someone's rage.
Usually when I meet the rain for our fellowship it is easy, its natural, and its pleasant.
Early this dark morning though I was faced with it being completely and eerily different.
My mind overwhelmed with what I was seeing, the intensity of these feelings, and the rawness of emotion that I was begging to leave you.

It wasn't until a flicker of light came down beside me, and I realized lighting had struck just a couple feet beside me.
I was at the storms mercy.
A solider with no armor.
Struck by the force of nature...I was alone no longer.

'You need to start believing your own words, if you expect them to be sought and followed.
Lead by example.
You have a voice, and it is heard. Too bad you don't hear it'

It didn't take long for my cries to get lost in the hundreds of rain drops that fell this morning.

Her face still in the front of my mind.
My eyes bleeding tears for her.
Frozen in place, with him at my side...
'What do I do?'

Screaming in agony, pleading for peace, letting my fears get the best of me, I fall to my knees.
It stopped raining in the second she left...
...the storm was no more.
But I am still the fury, waiting to hear that she walked through her door.

Because my mind is overwhelmed with what I am seeing, the intensity of these feelings, and the rawness of your emotion that I am begging to leave you be...
'She'........sleeps
sleep...rAiN
...Sleep
Sleep...She Sleeps

Lost

I have lost my place....

Lost

I no longer fit in....anywhere

Awkwardness

I have drifted away

Unknown

All around me...Darkness

Alone

I am Lost...

I'M A LUNATIC

"Regrets are like greed, watch what you ask for and how much you take...."
~Michael Jackson '2010'



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